Losing Clients
It is never easy for a therapist to hear the words.
I do not hear these words often. I need something different in my therapy and am going in another direction.
After the email or the text, I will ponder for a bit and think about what might have gotten misconstrued or how they may have gotten triggered.
Somatic therapy is a dance of trust, and I think about what I could have done better to support the client.
Usually, it concerns the awareness from a Somatic Therapy session, and people need more time to be ready to lean into it.
In this last break-up, this was the case.
Awareness comes as a seedling, and connections are made quickly within the same session to see the entire tree in greater detail.
Sometimes we want this awareness and want these shifts, but we are ill-prepared for them when they come.
I remember this client coming to an awareness of constantly feeling like a problem, a burden for her family, and so very broken.
This belief has been around her entire life.
I did not consider how profound an experience it might be to have another person tell her this belief was not valid.
When we come face to face with our false story and get information about how we started it, it can sometimes be too much.
Too much awareness about our grief of holding this, too much acknowledgment of who we are because of it, and too much memory of all the ways this belief has scarred us.
When awareness and a negative core belief come forward, healing and connection are profound.
I should have done more to ensure that this awareness was manageable in this instance.
Overlooking her hidden state of mind is entirely on me.
The therapy in my office is not for the faint of heart.
It is tough to sit with uncomfortable sensations linked to past moments of overwhelm and feel them briefly to release them fully.
My work is not for everybody, and that is okay.
I have something new to learn whenever someone leaves.
The lessons are profound; I take them to heart and will do better next time.
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